Suzanne Bernert

  I keep on bumping into the sharp edges of our memories together..hoping that time will make them round and smooth and happy as we were happy... desperately wanting to look back and smile seeing you smile back at me .. holding on to my new reality, grasping for the hand of the one who loves me now.. who let's me cry and grieve for you and gives me hope and love for the new "us"... Moving forward hand in hand. 

The amount of tears I am crying in the backseat of cars while old Hindi songs play..Akhil used to sing and he did it so well..O Mere Dil Ke Chain, a Song by Kishore Kumar keeps on playing on the radio wherever I am and the raw pain hits me ...never will I hear him sing again while he is driving us home from a shoot or meeting ... The love for those songs he gifted me...I just wish I would have listened more,learned even more from him.... Kishore Kumar's  Mere Sapno Ki Rani we used to sing together...and he had such fun movements and expressions...not while driving of course... Rhim Jhim is the first song I kind of learned... Now Monsoon is coming and he isn't here to sing with me... Mere Naina Sawan Bhadon