Suzanne Bernert

 In a world that's so much for equality and awareness of gender,sexuality and the diverse field of pronouns I often wonder about something totally different.All that yelling and shouting about getting pronouns right and then I look around and see completely different problems... Problems we all have,all go through,all need to know how to handle ... I feel like we are all not equipped how-to be empathic, how to understand someone else's problem and circumstances...how to navigate sickness,mental issues,death in all its different forms.. be it sudden or drawn out ... how to be when a loved one is dying bit by bit every day.. what to say to a woman who lost her baby before it was born...how to be open and there for someone else without hurting so much. How not to be flippant, how to listen and actually understand what the other person is saying.Most of the time we are caught up in our own lives and dramas and yes...that's important as we live here,now,and in this society... Bu

You were my reason to be... You were my reason to flourish,strive,be successful,be happy... You were the reason to make this flat a home...fill it with love and laughter... You were my reason to go and conquer the world. You were my reason to smile... You were my reason to be ....

There is a storm raging through my heart screaming out your name...but you can't hear me... you stepped over the line where I can't follow you...and I don't know why I am still here...why you left without me...the one I want to be with,the one I want to talk to,the one I want to make smile,happy,feed,love,cuddle has gone in a blink of an eye..and I am left with empty hands and a full heart not knowing what to do with myself and all the love I have for you...

  I can't cuddle,whisper in your ear,hold your hand,sooth your fears,exchange silly,fun,serious what's app..fight the world together.Discuss politics,watch TV Shows...go for walks, taking pics together,doing our videos ...  You will never see me on screen again and I will never see you in a new character... we talked that day on the phone about how many spoons of millets u would need as I wasn't home ..u sent me a video of the new hot water geyser.. I sent you hearts you sent me your favourite emojis 🥰😘 I don't know how to go on as the person who would know isn't here anymore

    The yearning gets stronger day by day....it starts in my legs,moves up my back and screams in my heart ... Relentless heat is beating onto Mumbai and only the wind that has started some time back carries the promise ... the promise of rain... meanwhile sweat doesn't dry on skin as it is too humid. I am dizzy a lot and am not even working this year. Difficult to make someone back in Germany understand what that feeling is... the waiting for Monsoon... When the sky opens and the blessing falls upon the earth.. End of May I always feel like nature sits in anticipation.. And so do we humans ... When Social Media starts dreaming of chai, old Kishore Da songs and sitting by the window watching the rains... Romantic time.. Germany sees a lot of rain throughout the year so they don't understand how one country can hold its breath until Monsoon starts ... Yes,we do wait for Monsoon And yes we will complain about it by August latest And yes it can bring chaos But it's

  Dark purple sky turning darker by the minute... extinguishing the last few orange freckles left at the end of the horizon... a Palm Tree swinging in the breeze like a slow single dancer. Walking down the road she came. Moving with grace. To her favourite spot.  And as she was stretching towards the sky... feeling it like a blanket of silk embracing her...the air was soft and warm... from somewhere she could hear one single bird chirping his melody... completely in tune with himself and the universe... craving for that same harmony she sat down on her Yoga Mat, breathed in deeply and started her chant...  Wind whispered around her. Her voice soft and strong at the same time chanting the ageless chant...like millions before her did. Falling deeper into a state of relaxation and ease...ease with herself and the world around. Just to be able to stay like this throughout the day. At ease, connected but not entangled. After the last syllable left her lips she again gazed up at the sky that