When will it hurt less

When will this pain get less? When will I stop crying from morning till night? When will I be able to look back and be grateful for what we had? I wish we could have talked about how it was to loose Manju...and your brother... and your parents. I was with you when Mom left us but i didnt understand that pain that time ...i was still innocent in tbe ways of loss.Loss of a deeply loved person. I want to talk to you to understand how to move ahead in life. I am missing your insights and your deep knowledge about life. Your guidance and your love. Its going to be a year soon but it feels like yesterday that I touched your curls at the back of your neck in the ambulance on the way to your cremation. I loved everything about you. And you took our old life with you in the flames of your pyre.

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