Maybe

By the end of it,  all will be good... she kept on repeating the sentence again and again in her head like a Mantra. 

Good, all will be good.The long hours, the endless discussions, the never ending stream of work.

All will be good.

It had to be ....

Or all would be have been in vain... 

No, that wasn't a thought she let enter her mind.The presentation would be perfect and her start up idea would take her to heights she could not even imagine right now. 

Determined she had set out on this journey. Believing in herself and her idea. Pushing her doubts and even her friends to the side. One single goal eating up all her energy. 

***

Now years later she would look back at that moment her life changed. 

Hardly recognising who she used to be. Feeling like more than one lifetime had passed. Looking back at the fresh faced, eager and energetic young woman who wanted it all.

But who also lost a lot. No family or friends to celebrate success with.... 

No one to come home to at night... 

Would she do it all again? Maybe...


ybe...

Comments

  1. Ashwini24 January 2022 at 00:11

    Suzanne,i went through a similar experience however i have the wife and kids still with me.Kids have grown up to be successful adult people have their own lives but i am happy that we are there as a family.I don't mind the losses i incurred on the professional front since having the family with all it's pros and cons with me,i fél it was the best that could have been.

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  2. Unknown24 January 2022 at 01:45

    Thought provoking

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  3. Unknown24 January 2022 at 02:07

    Beautifully put..

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  4. Sabreen20 February 2022 at 21:47

    Very relatable. The choices one has to make and the constant sacrifice of one or the other. M wondering if this is you.

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