Storm inside my heart





There is a storm raging through my heart screaming out your name...but you can't hear me... you stepped over the line where I can't follow you...and I don't know why I am still here...why you left without me...the one I want to be with,the one I want to talk to,the one I want to make smile,happy,feed,love,cuddle has gone in a blink of an eye..and I am left with empty hands and a full heart not knowing what to do with myself and all the love I have for you...

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